Dreamt that I dreamt of my mother

I've been waiting so long to have a vivid dream of my late mother. You know when we sleep, our souls leave our body, just like the dead. And for those who are destined to still live, the soul returns. 

So during sleep, our souls are wandering, i don't know where. I'd like to think that mine has met my mom's in the other dimension. 

 So before I forget... Just now I took a nap after my subuh, and I dreamt. We were somehow living in a condo on the ground floor. And as I was sliding the window, open, I found that somehow it was not moving evenly. (must be all the architect videos I was watching). And then I checked below, and found that when i moved the window, the wall below it shifted and then one more slide of the window, the wall broke into pieces. 

 I called my husband, and as I was speaking to him, in some how a chaotic situation - everyone was talking - the door bell rang. We opened the door and my mother was there! She had straight should length hair in white dress (yes white dress - probably like the one my daughter has) and she was smiling so widely. So I said 'mak!!' and hugged her tight. 

I looked for my father, but apparently she came alone. I asked her to sit, and I think at that point her hair looked more like when she left us. At that point somehow, I supposedly woke up from my dream and went to tell my husband that I dreamt of my mom so vividly - very vividly it was as if she was really really here. 

 And then Hanaa came out to show me a photo frame she wanted to give me for my birthday and it was a picture of her, my mother and me. And she said, 'you know atuk chose this picture right'? [after this i'm not sure which comes first and the exact sequence, but the following happened in my dream] Then I continued complaining to my husband about the wall, and somehow, he was already at another place and I found myself talking to the wall (wow - this is...). 

Then I noticed that there were many drawings on the wall, and Hadi said it was his, from when he was a boy. He ran in the room to take something to show. 

And then I went back 'downstairs', now it's somehow downstairs' to the balcony by the river -  or was it flooded? - anyway, someone found a body that may still be alive, and the doctor and ambulance was waiting there, then suddenly the boy was on a floating stage of somekind with another boy who is chinese, interviewing him for short while and speak a bit and finished of with some arabic phrases like he heard on the radio at the end of religious lectures.. (was that Isa Ma? haha). 

 And then I recalled the very vivid dream I had about my mom - and then I woke up for real and now I am smiling, happy that I had a dream about my mom - even if it was a dream, in that dream - it was vivid and she looked so well and happy :) 

 May Allaah forgive all of our parents sins and gather all of us in Jannatul Firdaus. Aamiin. Have a great Friday. :) Then I went back 'upstairs' to see the situation about the wall.

To Japan and back.

Last night before I slept, I was reading up on some Japanese Art of mending broken things (kintsugi).  Love it.

I also thought about my upcoming trip to Japan (not so soon).   And… I had just finished reading Story of Your Life, as I mentioned in previous entry.

Last night, I had a wonderful vivid dream.   I was in Japan.

I was in Japan and I was trying to experience being in Japan as a whole, like I was able to feel the whole trip.  However, the scenes are still quite linear.

In my dream, my usually decent looking Japanese colleague, Teru-san, spotted long shoulder length hair which is cool, and was looking charming.   The first night I was there, I slept over at his house, which he shares with his sister and brother in law.   After that, my colleagues from office joined us, as we begin touring the local area.

I remember seeing some beautiful Japanese art and craft products – and there was another quaint souvenir shop next to the shop I was at.  The shop I was at, turned into a restaurant – and we ordered noodles.  It was halal – they all said so, and I saw no meat.   After that, my colleagues said the noodles were they best they have ever tasted, and couldn’t get enough of it, even though they have eaten two bowls of it – so they ordered more.    I am satisfied with mine, so I decided to go into the shop next door that was selling souvenirs.  In dreams, sometimes you don’t see yourself walking, you teleport to wherever you want to go.    So I was suddenly at the front of the souvenir shop.  I remember seeing some beautifully crafted key chains and small decorative stuff.  Of course I saw some kintsugi objects also.

Then I awoke and I was back on my bed, at a time when I’m suppose to be leaving the house already. 

In any case, alhamdulillaah, I still managed to reach the office in time for my 8am teleconference with some Japanese members. :p

I’ve been to Japan and back, masyaaAllaah.

The most beautiful dream! Masyaa Allaah

To cut the story short - cause I don't really recall what happened in the earlier part - I was riding on a sleigh.

Actually I was suppose to be riding in a cab driven by a pakcik, but somehow that cab turned out to be a sleigh - you know how dreams are.

Then we moved off, and I was looking up at the sky - it was the most beautiful sky I had ever seen with so many hues and colours like you'd see in northern lights.  The milliions of stars were like thousands of specks of really shiny silver in the sky.  There were spirals in the sky too - I wondered what those were.  I was exclaiming aloud - 'Subhanallaah!  Masyaa Allaah!  It's sooo beautiful!!!!" 

The sleigh went faster and faster - the pakcik was afraid, and I was busy enjoying the wind that came with the speed - passing by (or over?) a city of lights, then we were going upwards.  The pakcik (I only heard him - I didn't actually see him) - he was shouting 'eh eh! "  I was still just exclaiming with delight, at the whole scene and experience. 

Suddenly a very big wave was in front of us - pakcik shouted some more - but the wave looked beautiful to me, against the colourful sky.  I wondered if it was Qiyamah, and I felt a little bit afraid, but still exclaiming, Subhanallaah!    Another wave came - also as beautiful, and suddenly I was kind of walking on a bridge going upwards - feeling afraid, but assured that Allaah will take care of me.  I love Allaah and I know He'll take care of me. The sky was still as beautiful.

And then I was on a ship, above this beautiful dream water against the colourful sky.  I think I jumped in to swim.. and after that, I don't really recall what happened.

Masyaa Allaah.. ALHAMDULILLAAH for such a wonderful, beautiful dream!

You know, dreams are not much different from physical experiences.  Both of them, we can recall in our minds and cannot touch, but it remains as beautiful memories.

the most trippy one by far

I was lying down on the floor, deep in my thoughts, with my legs up against a wall. Suddenly, I felt like I was stretching my legs, except that I know I didn't do it intentionally. It was my legs stretching on it's own. When it has stretched to it's fullest, I still felt like it was still stretching, pushing myself further from the wall. I remember thinking.. is this the work of a Satan?  I bended my legs a bit, but then it stretched again and this time I really felt like I was going further from the wall and my legs were becoming longer.  I stretched my hands to see if I had reached my bed on the other side.  I shouted for my husband, 'Abaaaaaaaaaaa!' He was downstairs and I wanted so much for him to hear me, so I shouted some more.

At that very moment, I awoke, silent, in the exact position that I had been in my dreams. And I was in awe, at how loud I was shouting and how quiet I actually was when I awoke. I was not screaming. Subhanallaah, I thought. That dream was so vivid and so weird.  I wanted to get up and run to my computer to record this weird / wonderful discovery of a dream experience.  I got up and went to the computer.

But then I woke up, again, and realised that the last part was also a dream. I had fallen back asleep and I was in my dream that I wanted to wake up from.  I forced myself to wake up. I realised sometimes we don't have the power to wake ourselves up, even though we know we are dreaming. I've had this experience before.

I finally managed to wake myself up, alhamdulillaah. I got up and went to the computer. On the computer, I saw that it was on an email page, similar to the my work email. And I was thinking, why didn't I know that my husband was using the same type of email I did at work.

Then I WOKE UP AGAIN. This time, for real. And I was asleep in the position I was in my dream, in my dream, except that it was the opposite way, I was lying on the floor with my legs up at the edge of my bed.

Masyaa Allaah.. Subhanallaaah. How my ruh travelled! This is so mind boggling!!
It was like... it was like............ inception.


Alhamdulillaah, I am really awake now - well... I hope I am truly, in this current world that is also an illusion.  The real time we will truly be awake, is when we die, and see the real Truth of this life and the Hereafter.

"الْحَمْدُ للهِ الَّذِي أَحْيَانَا بَعْدَ مَا أَمَاتَنَا وَإِلَيْهِ النُّشُورُ"

Praise is to Allah Who gives us life after He has caused us to die and to Him is the return.
Doa when waking up from sleep - source Hisnul Muslim -from hadith Bukhari & Muslim)

send the umbrella

Last night I dreamt that I worked in a school. I seem to be the office attendant, and my job was to send umbrellas to the teachers when they need it.

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chotto matte kudasai

Last night's dream, many people attended. My daughters, my mom and possibly my late grandma and a few of my friends.

Anyway, few scenes I remember from the film dream.

1. My daughters and I.. we were walking at some carpark.. trying to cross over a drain.. or was it a wall? And she was singing "chotto matte kudasai, please excuse me while I cry" and I asked her.."eh you know the song?" and we sang together as we walked..

2. At a long table at a hawker center or maybe canteen.. my mom and possibly my late grandma, seated beside me.. opposite me hazman and another guy. and I saw abdillah and his girlfriend? at the end of the table, then he disappeared, and I said, "eh, abdillah dah jalan.." And then the guy next to hazman turned out to be abdillah and gave the whacca-talking-about look. and then I said.. "masyaAllah, that guy at the end of the table look a LOT like you!".

3. Mai and me, we were at a mosque, I think.. on the 2nd floor beside some stairs. Maybe listening to ceramah.. or maybe doing a shoot? There was a door and hazman is on the other side, sitting at a table (maybe the same table from above.. ) and I was asking him.. can you really come to edit tomorrow? (in the dream tomorrow was Sunday). and he said convincingly, "insyaAllah I boleh turun, kak."

4. I was running from the carpark to meet some friends.. I was late and afraid that they would leave without me. A caucasion woman was there walking her bull dog who looked big and friendly - almost like a cartoon. Suddenly the bull dog was running beside me, together. I stopped on a pathway, by some bushes, hoping it'll go back to it's owner. The bull dog stopped too. It stood on it's two hind legs. looked at the flowers in the middle of the bush and said, "flower".
Surprised, I asked the owner,"Did the dog just say 'flower'?!".
"Yes, in fact he can say a few other words".
"Wow!" I said.


** I read in Harun Yahya's book - Matter : The other name for Illusion - that when we are *so-called awake, we actually see the things around us in our minds/brains. Meaning, we are not really 'seeing' the ACTUAL things around us. The images are formed in our brains and we perceive it from our brains. This is confirmed by scientists in the numerous books quoted. And when we dream, the images are formed in more or less the same way.

Makes me wonder, what the difference is, between being 'awake' and dreaming. In both cases, it's the soul that sees the perceived images. MasyaAllah. 'Awake' is how we perceive ourselves to be on this earth. But in fact, we may all be dreaming. (pfft.. okay i know i'm going too deep, too deep! but hey, it's my blog :p ) ..AND, we will really be awake, and see REALITY, when we die from the life on this earth and in akhirat.

Ya Allah, save us from being consumed with the illusions of this world. Ameen.

"Every soul will taste of death. And ye will be paid on the Day of Resurrection only that which ye have fairly earned. Whoso is removed from the Fire and is made to enter Paradise, he indeed is triumphant. The life of this world is but comfort of illusion.

- Al Quran, Ali Imran 3:185
(Picktall)

the butterfly

MasyaAllah! I just realised it was a dream, what I saw just now. For a while, at the back of my mind - I thought it was something that really happened.

I was out 5am in the morning, then I got back home about 7am and I slept a bit before I woke up again about 830am..

Before I totally forget, in my dream..

I think I was at a gathering at some house, my aunts were there, and we were going to leave - but they took their time, so I walked out slowly first. As I looked ahead to where I should pass, I saw the surrounding is a jungle (must be the topic last night) and the path we 'normally' would take has thick growth now. A few bushes had fully grown. But I saw that I could probably squeeze through by the side, between the bushes and the railings, so I walked through, brushing the bushes, and stepping over, what I don't know could be underneath, cause you can't really see.

Then I looked by the railing and I saw there was like a basement floor.. someone was there.. Can't figure out who. They were taking pictures. I got to the other side where there was a clearing.. Then I thought, I better go back so that I can guide the others. And suddenly I saw this beautiful butterfly on a leaf of one of the bushes that covered the pathway. As I walked nearer, it flew away, and it landed on some wall now, and it's bigger and it's very colourful, and it's the most beautiful butterfly I had ever seen. I wanted to take a photo, but I don't have my camera with me.. I only managed to take it with my phone. It flew and it could transform into an insect, then it turned into the butterfly again when it wanted to fly.

I walked back to the other side.. and met my husband. Then we went into.. what seem like an indonesian buffet restaurant - two floors. and while waiting for our table, I sat with two older ladies, and we were talking about how she liked the food there.. I think. And then I went to look for a table to sit.

And then, I woke up.

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See.. the thing is, this morning, nyai (my husband's grandma) had just passed away. I'd love to think that she is the beautiful butterfly I saw in my dream.

May God forgive her sins, bless her soul, let her be among the blessed and grant her a blissful Afterlife. Ameen.

Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun.

In space with big planets.

I was looking out into space, from a spacious space shuttle. Next minute I know, I was outside, and flying around the big planets. There were planets where u can see buildings jutting out.. they were all quite close to each other. I flew between them, downwards, upwards. I even did a somersault in space. I may have been flying with Hanaa, don't remember but when I was back in the space shuttle, I was holding Hanaa's hands, and we had loads of balloons (I guess, tks to the movie UP).. and we walk about the space shuttle, and I woke up.

Nice. Alhamdulillah :)

stargazing, Saturn and dancing banglas

I have on and off, had the interest to study astronomy, but of course it never actually happened. The least, that I want to be able to do is to recognise and name some constellations or identify a planet. Yesterday I read up a bit about stargazing. And I think I've learnt a little bit more.

I've always wondered about those stars, how astronomers can recognise them.. I mean there are like thousands of visible stars out there. Of course, the view of the universe and what planets we can see over the months/years would change, since the earth IS rotating and orbiting around the sun. I found a website where you can view the skymap, as at NOW.

Isn't it just wonderful? That universe out there.. is not just some fantasy or a dream, it's REALLY out there - and we can SEE it plainly. However, somehow, we forget that the stars we see are really far far away stars. Sometimes we feel like it's just a backdrop in the sky. We're too busy looking at stuff just under our noses, that we forget how minute and insignificant we are and how vast the universe is.. Subhanallah.

I came back home yesterday, all excited and looking forward to identifying some constellations. But the sky turned out to be mostly cloudy. I checked the internet, Saturn was supposed to be viewable by 2am.. but of course I couldn't stay up. It's a work night. So I went to sleep, after being able to see just one star in the sky, which may or may not have been the Procyon.

Then, I couldn't sleep properly. Plus.. i had the RLS (restless leg syndrome). When I kept waking up around 3 or 4 plus.. i wanted to go lie by the window and see the stars..and look out for Saturn.. but I just couldn't move myself.. too tired and sleepy.

In the end, I did fall back asleep. I dreamt that I saw Saturn in the sky, and it was so huge and beautiful. It was glowing rainbow colours. I think I was at a neighbour's house.. and then the area in front of our houses, seemed like it's all a construction site. Then all of a sudden, some Banglas arrived on a lorry.. they got down and formed a circle, and they started dancing. Don't remember hearing any music though. I went back to my place to watch some more.. I don't know at which point i actually woke up.. but I just remember seeing the Saturn a few times and it was huge!

How did those dancing banglas got into my dreams? Here's a theory. See, last Saturday I watched an old hindi movie which everyone says is good, but I have not seen a Hindi movie since i was a little girl. So that was the first dose of a looong movie with songs and coordinated dances. Plus, we also have some Bangladeshis, working on the road just outside our estate. So.. there you go.

Hmm.. Tuesday.

what do we do near kiamat?

last night i dreamt..

I was with my family.. and we were playing at a resort like square swimming pool, that was dark blue in colour.. almost rustic. Each of us were floating on the water, standing on a disc like thing, with a pole, which we held on to. then somehow, i sensed of something big happening.. like there would be fireworks in the sky.

and suddenly we see a very bright light coming over the horizon (which seems quite small, like we're on a big ball aje..) it was the sun.. and it was very near.. so near that I could see the burning surface.. and I was telling my kids.. "maybe its going to kiamat". So I went over to each of my kids and reminded them.. "remember..there is no God but Allah!.. remember Allah!"

another wonderful dream

- for my reference -

I saw this very beautiful night sky, over a bright city below.. it was as if I was looking at it from a high green mountain. As I admired the sky, I noticed that there are many spotlight kind of light, coming down from the sky.. like it was from a UFO. many of them.. then suddenly.. i was FLYING AGAIN!! I love it!!

This time, I found myself flying with hubby by my side.
Because I had 'experienced' flying before - I was more confident this time. Again, I can feel the wind against my face - it was wonderful. Then, we seem to land on some grass patch, and in the dream I somehow knew we were around Jurong. Don't ask me why.

Hubby was soo tired, he slept on the grass. Suddenly I noticed, he was sleeping inside a rotating door, and there were people trying to come in through the door, but he was blocking it. So I asked him to get up, and go home. He used the wrong slippers, I asked him to change.

Then I noticed Hadi approaching in my car. He was driving it and he came to fetch us. Then I noticed 3 cars there, my parents, hubby's and mine. Then we got in hubby's car, I'm not sure who was driving, it could be Hadi. Then I was at the back seat, holding and kissing Iman. And then I suddenly remembered, no one is driving my car back home. So we had to turn back and get my car.

And then I woke up.. happy.

The best part of the dream, was the view of the most beautiful night sky and the flight. :)

aaahhh....:) Alhamdulillah.

:) :)

Salam Jumuah!!

i flew again

Ok. ermm. I just wanted to record this - before i totally forget about it.

It's not as vivid as the last flying experience I had. It's also not as long, or as fun.

But anyhow, I dreamt that I flew again. This time through space. And I WAS flying with somebody, although by now I totally cannot remember who it was. I just remember, flying macam superman through space - seeing stars against the black background, all around me. Don't remember feeling any wind, just the speed.

Yeah.. that's all i remember. flying through space for that 5-10 secs.
Still didn't beat that previous flying experience.
Alhamdulillah for this nice dream.

Ok. Belajar.

Between a dream and a memory

There was once when I dreamt that I was flying, literally flying. That is, by far, the best dream I've ever had. Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah.
In that dream, I was flying, almost like an eagle, - macam superman pun ada, but I was not as silly as him. I did not wear my undies on the outside.

I remember feeling a little bit afraid of the height and the speed at first, but very soon got the hang of it, and was enjoying my flight.

I flew over the highways and I flew over the sea, near the beach, past some birds. And I can actually feel the wind in my face.
Then I was flying in town - the town seems to be a little bit futuristic, with tall buildings.. but still I was flying quite fast. Peng here, peng there, nak elakkan the tall buildings.

But while tengah action peng sana sini, suddenly there was a glass building right in front of me. I tried my best to avoid the building, making a sudden dip, trying to pass through a gap kat building tu.
But I didn't make it - I flew straight into the building. I thought I was going to pengsan or fall, but to my surprise.. I actually flew THROUGH the building.. the building was like a hologram, it was not real. MasyaAllah it was weird.. but best nyer!!!!

THEN, I tried to recall previous experiences I've had, the memories. I thought about the surroundings and what happened then, and I realise that at this point, that there seems to be no difference between the memories and my dreams. Both, I cannot go to anymore. It's something I remember but it happened in the past and I cannot reach it or feel it physically anymore. It just remains there in some 'memory bank'. In fact, the flying dream is still vivid in my mind and I can still feel a slight thrill, thinking about it, compared to the roller coaster ride I actually took before.

You know, in our sleep, our soul leaves our body, just like when we die. But since it's not time for us, our soul returns when we're awake.

It is Allah that takes the souls (of men) at death; and those that die not (He takes) during their sleep: those on whom He has passed the decree of death, He keeps back (from returning to life), but the rest He sends (to their bodies) for a term appointed verily in this are Signs for those who reflect.
Al Quran, Az-Zumar 39:42

And my soul must have really been enjoying herself, in that flight dream.

So now, sometimes, when I want to experience something, I'd wish or doa, that if I cannot go to it or experience it physically, let me dream about it. Because after that, the memory of it is just as good, masyaAllah.