Madame Blossom's Book of Poems

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

to be everywhere

socks, as you can see

Armed with new determination, new shoes and new socks, I face this week.

I'm trying to figure out how i feel, what my mood is. I'm not particularly sad, nor am I happy. I guess I am in a tafakkur state - thinking.

There are a few important & serious stuff happening around me, to people close to me. I have to thank Allah SWT for being in the state that I am in. Others are facing greater challenges. I hope I can be of some solace to them. I hope I am able to comfort them, to give them the right advice. At the same time wondering, if I am the right person to give advice. But then, nobody is perfect right? We do and give the best we can.

Then there are a few other good family/friends, I have not been able to catch up with. I wish I can give them some of my time. But I'm torn between family, studies, work, extended family and friends.
But I guess, I can work more on setting priorities and dividing time, AND having some DISCIPLINE. Allah help me.

And reading Sahalfikiri's entry of 25th Nov, pun makes me determined to be a good mother to my children.
I pray that I will be able to be the friend, they can confide in. But now they are still young, so more of a mother than friend. :)

And then, myself. Yes, myself. What have I been doing? Have I been doing anything to upgrade myself? make me a better person? Was my day better the the days before? Why do I do the things I do? I need to ponder on the question put forth by Allah SWT:

"Whither(to what place), then, will you go?"
Al Quran, At-Takwir 81:26

We seek assistance and guidance from Allah SWT.
And my prayer for all of us:
patience, strength in facing the challenges, and our iman to be strong.

I do love u all, LILLAH.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

sunday, unplugged

just now was Quran papers. How did I do? I think macam cukup makan aje lah gitu. I did my best, but of course, my best was not the best of the best. Could be better. could be more rajin, could, could, could. Anyway, it's not the end, next week masih ada.

Tadi exams was near Arab st, so apa lagi? lepas exams, go down there. And look what we found! A small turkish restaurant, called Ala Turki (i think). Food is........err... turkish. But after food, we wandered to a beautiful room, in the restaurant, and started snapping away. Macam kat Turkey right? Yok ke Turki, yok!


And after that, we shopped, till we almost drop. I HAD to get my shoes, yang da buruk sangat ni. Yes, i'm not like most other girls I know, who has 101 shoes in their storeroom. I also don't buy handbags and jewelleries much - tak kuasa nya nak pakai tukar2. Serious, untung laki aku.
Shoes, I only use 1 pair, until macam da nak rabak, then I get a new pair. But just now, I got me a sandal too. =D

then, balik, hubby ajak gi vivo city pulak. Yes, YT - at last I went to the much talked about vivocity. Nice view of Sentosa and the bridge. Reminds me of the esplanade. hadi and hanaa, diorang gi fishing dengan Atuk. So, it's only eema and nadh.


I guess I had a good weekend. Fagged, but it was good. I hope you did too!

And tomorrow is the dreaded Monday. Work days should start on Tuesdays.. (yeah right)

signing off,
blossom, seriously unplugged*.

*unplugged - when used in an email or letter or any writings of sorts, it means that it's not proofread or edited. So any grammatical or spelling errors.. or sentences or words that doesn't seem to make sense, should be deciphered or ignored - whichever is easier to do.

Penat ah.. nak tidur.

Friday, November 24, 2006

home alone

i can't remember the last time i was ever alone at home. Maybe never?

On monday (i think it was monday) I went to the new national library to get resources for my assignment. masyaAllah, i tell you.. the place is big and... cantik ah jugak. Taking the lift down, from 11th floor, with a view of the city and the road below, was like taking the roller coaster, sikit. Weeeee!!!

This week eema completed her madrasah orientation :) next one, next month. during orientation, ada talk for parents. We learned how boys learn differently from girls. Shall read more on that, after this semester's exams. insyaallah.
(Actually, I have lots of books waiting to be read.)

Then, Hadi pulak ada musical. he was asked to join by his teacher. He didn't let us go and watch. Dia malu, he said. But we did, without his knowledge. Sedih sey kalau tak pegi tengok. It's quite a big scale production.

He was delighted when I surprised him with a videoclip, I had quickly put up, of his performance. (balik aje from his musical, kelam kabut buat) =D

but the part I AM happy about is, back at home, when i asked him to do his isya' prayers, he said that he had already done it during the show interval, backstage. Alhamdulillah. This is what I want - the children can go do whatever they like (as long as tak langgar syara'), but they must always be God-conscious.

*disclaimer - that musical poster was, of course, doctored by the mother to feature her own son :p.

Serious news:
An auntie was admitted to ICU, day before yesterday. She had a mild stroke few days back and was admitted, and da balik. But now her health has taken a turn for the worse. Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun.

Help me pray for her recovery and comfort, and what's best for her. And to her daughter, be patient darling sis. Perservere. It's Allah's test.

And surely We shall try you with something of fear and hunger, and loss of wealth and lives and crops; but give glad tidings to the steadfast,
Who say, when a misfortune striketh them: Lo! we are Allah's and Lo! unto Him we are returning.
Al Quran, Al Baqarah 2:155-156

*takes a deep breath*

Right. Besok exams.

Ok dah. Gi belajar lah!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

time flies

lagi 3 hari aje exams! that is also the day to hand in the assignments, although the deadline was given months ago! rajin sangat kan kita?? Please pray for us.

too many things happening over the last few days.. i almost can't remember what happened when. At this moment, i remember faces, images, words, thoughts and feelings..

words playing in my head :
"Oh pocot pocot pocot!"
- exclaimed by a pakcik in class, when he dropped his notes

"give me teh-o ice limau panas"
-someone jambu, ordered

- arabic for.. like 'ok go' gitu. overused this week - baru bljr.

- claimed to be a jambu nurse - can't verify it. i haven't seen her personally

- sejak bila aku asik pakai word 'jambu' ni?

thoughts, feelings and images:

alhamdulillah. It's almost bliss, driving & enjoying the greeneries around me, without being spoiled by concretes in the background. I get to enjoy that daily, staying in the west.

What I'll remember most about bkhim? her whispery voice =D. will miss u.


.. and chameleons

.. and everything else

Monday, November 20, 2006

a wedding celebration

Oh ya, before i begin... Recently, I was questioned by a sis:
'How did you know that he was the one for you?'

'I don't. I don't know for sure'

Allahua'lam. I just know he was the right one for me at that moment, when I was ready to get married. And alhamdulillah, we're still together.

Just because you're in love setengah gila.. and oh-so-sure he is the one, does not guarantee a happy marriage. We've heard it before kan? So? If you think there is a 'perfect' man waiting for you, you've been watching too much movies. There isn't any 'perfect man', waiting for you. With every partner, comes the pleasures and the challenges. Hey, this is life on earth - what did you expect? Eternal bliss is only in Heaven.

Ok, ok.. this is not suppose to be a membebel post. It's a post to celebrate the union of my dear sis, siti & hafizan on 17th Nov 2006!!!! yeah yeah!! weeeeweet!

(sorry this post came a bit late.. I was either too busy/tired/sleepy/lazy,
or all of the above.)

May both of you be blessed with iman, love, understanding, strength and patience, throughout.
AND babies.

Thursday, November 16, 2006


Just now we were having a meeting, where we had to go through some functional specs. During a short break, while the rests where talking and joking, I decided to check my emails, including those from yahoo.

While I was engrossed, reading one of my very personal email, one of the managers pointed to the projector screen in the meeting room and asked,
'I want to ask you ah.. is this a Malay word?"

I looked up to the projector screen and saw that it looked very familiar.

At that point I realise, my screen, was still being projected on the BIG screen!!!
Everybody in the room was looking at my mail! wah piang oi!!!

Aiyoh.. nasib baik aku baru aje nak start baca.
I quickly switched to the working document and freezed the screen.

Pai seh pai seh.

Surely We created man of the best stature ;
Then We reduced him to the lowest of the low ;
Save those who believe and do good works, and theirs is a reward unfailing.
Al Quran, At-Tin 95 : 4 - 6

Narrated Anas:
The Prophet said, "None of you will have faith till he wishes for his (Muslim) brother what he likes for himself."
Sahih Bukhari, Volume 1, Book 2, Number 12

Tuesday, November 14, 2006


Narrated Abu Huraira:

Allah's Apostle said, "Anybody who believes in Allah and the Last Day should not harm his neighbor, and anybody who believes in Allah and the Last Day should entertain his guest generously and anybody who believes in Allah and the Last Day should talk what is good or keep quiet. (i.e. abstain from all kinds of evil and dirty talk).
Sahih Bukhari Volume 8, Book 73, Number 47

Snapshots of my past weekend :)

*some shots were by pink*