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Wednesday, April 22, 2009

no time to not plan

I think I remember saying that if I have my own car, I can stop wherever I see a nice scene, to snap some pictures. As far as I remember, that has never actually happened. Because I don't have the luxury of having an extra 1-2 hours, for an impromptu stopover to just enjoy a scene. It has to be planned.

Everything has to be planned. Like when I'm on my way home, I've already planned mentally to reach home by 6pm - I do not like to make any detour, even to buy my own stuff, if it was not mentally planned before hand. Ooh.. or maybe it's just me. I sometimes get upset when things don't go according to plan and on time planned. Does that make me a control freak? I don't think I AM.. cause if the day permits.. I would prefer not to make any plans - like how it was on Monday in KL. hmm.. but because there were no plans - we ended up sleeping the monday morning away. :-\ No good. But on almost every other time and day, there is a need to plan. So much so that if we DO do something impromptu, it would be a joy in itself, albeit a small one.
I remember feeling so very excited for Raudha when she told me, how one Sunday morning, with the children still in their pyjamas, they went to get petrol from JB, and Id (the husband) made an impromptu suggestion to drive up to Melaka. And they DID! and bought clothes there and bathed their children there. That was nice.

I want to wake up one morning and just decide to drive up to Melaka too - I'd head straight to the padi fields in Serkam. :D One day..

Snapping back to reality, most of the time, I don't have that much time, to not plan.

But the thing is, planning also brings joy and accomplishment. I planned and I did go climb that bukit... and I'm still thankful to Allah for that. :) Subhanallah. I do not want to sound like I'm ungrateful for what I've been able to do. I am.

It was just a long-winded thought.

So, I'll just be thankful for now.


MHB said...

how about marrying the two together -- plan a trip up north (as you told me you are planning) without actually having determine the location (Penang or Ipoh) and as you drive your way up, make an impromtu decision between the two ;-)

madame blossom said...

Tapi msia cuti jugak.. Nanti takut takde tempat nak tinggal. :p sounds like alasan. Or maybe just go JB :)