Who is your God?

Sorry eh. I really wanted to upload those clips, but I haven't got the video clips from SB yet. Kita merancang & Allah SWT menentukan.

I've been feeling quite melancholic the last 2 days actually. Rupanya PMS - I should've known.. it's that time of the month already. Can't fast, can't pray - but can at least still read the Quran. Hopefully the Iman tak merosot teruk.

The outlook at the office is also quite bad. This week is the start of a big project that I need to be involved in. A whole new system. But I'm determined to make this one turn out good. Good as in, we get what we expect to get, by making sure all the requirements are properly documented. Sometimes I feel like a Sherlock Holmes, asking questions after questions, grilling for answers - to both users and our vendor. If not for the migraine, I'd have enjoyed the whole session better.

Yup, been having migraine since Sunday. But I can't quite pin down the cause of this 'head-banging' thing. Few possible causes:
1. Lack of sleep or too much sleep (can't tell - sunday slept too much, monday?.. ntahlah..)
2. Trying to think of too many things at the same time?
3. Anticipation of this few days meeting at work?
4. Or the spectacles that sometimes feels tight..
Walaubagaimana pun.. ok lah.. no big issue. Saje nak ngadu sikit. Just pop 2 panadols, and it's normally much better.

Apa lagi eh.. Macam nothing much is happening. Or maybe I'm feeling like this, cause last Sat and yesterday Monday, no classes whatsoever. Oh yes! Hanaa started to read the Quran, so we went out to buy her, her OWN Quran. I hope the enthusiasm to read stays on. Ameen.

And talking about Quran, the other day, I came across this ayat and translation in the Quran:

Hast thou (Muhammad SAW) seen him who chooseth for his god his own lust? Wouldst thou then be guardian over him?
Al Quran, Al Furqan, 25:43

Na'uzubillah. Taking other gods than God, does not only mean that a person actually prays to god-idols or trees or fires, or put their trust in tangkal or penyapu tepi pintu. Letting our lives be 'controlled' by lust and our wants is also like worshipping our lusts/wants. Because they come as top priority in your life. They control your life. Lust for wealth, status, enjoyment, ekseteraa, ekseteraa, ekseteraa..

During Ramadhan, is the time for us to fight our wants, our lusts, kasi dia tahu SIAPA boss. This can be achieved through fasting and restraining ourselves, insyaAllah. So let's think about our choices, our actions.

Who, is to us, the real God in our lives?