dying everyday

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

I watched michael jackson's top 40 videos - videos of him when he was young, when he was still black, when he changed his nose and then his chin. Then I thought about him now - what if he was still alive? None of those would have changed.. as in the changes he made to himself, the person he has become now.. doesn't change.

Don't we die everyday?

A part of us - our past, die everyday as we pass them, and cannot retrieve them back. At least not in our current capacity and ability. My youth days are dead. I can listen to old songs, look at old photos - but I just can't go back to them. I can even meet old friends, but how I am now, is definitely different from how I was back then. The old me, is dead. Now there's only the current me - shaped by all the things I went through and things I learnt along the way.

Even before MJ passed away, we have already lost that old MJ. That part was already long gone. Only thing is, thanks to current technology - we can enjoy the old MJ in our current time through his old videos. But the him in that video, is no longer around, for a quite long time now.

My only hope is that, for all the good messages he was giving out in his songs, the way he knows how, for the gentle soul that people who knew him, say he is (and I believe so), and for him believing in God and doing good, may Allah reward him. InsyaAllah.