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Showing posts with label Our way of life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Our way of life. Show all posts

Monday, February 15, 2021

Why does God lead some people astray?

Bismillaahirrahmanirrahim
In the name of God, the Most Merciful, Most Beneficent

"...He whom Allah guides is the [rightly] guided, but he whom He sends astray - never will you find for him a protecting guide." (18:17) - among a few other verses on this subject.

This is among some tough questions in Islam.  There is not a straight forward answer and it takes many aspects of our iman to take this in. 

God has answered this question in the Quran.  As Sajdah (32:13) transliterated:  "And if We had willed, We could have given every soul its guidance, but the word from Me will come into effect [that] "I will surely fill Hell with jinn and people all together."

This is a very big test in gauging our humility, as a servant of God who has no power over God's will.  This puts us in our place.  Only our understanding of God's power and our true humility as a servant of God can make us accept this wholeheartedly - that we accept the fact that we ARE truly at His Mercy.  It is God who has ultimate power over all of us and all of the universe.    We have no power but to SURRENDER OURSELVES to God -  which is what it means to be a true Muslim. Allaahu Akbar.

As Muslims, we understand that God knows best, and we know next to nothing - we, as in we human, including the most knowledgeable of scientists.  We know only what God allows us to know.  (2:32 : "They [the Angels] said, "Exalted are You; we have no knowledge except what You have taught us. Indeed, it is You who is the Knowing,1 the Wise.")

We cannot be so arrogant as to demand to know the meaning behind every of God's actions and Words, as if we can understand everything fully.  We cannot encompass and understand the much greater part of God's plans and God's knowledge.  We accept that God knows and we know not.  

But then again, as a Muslim, the other aspect of our iman, tells us to put our full trust in God " for Allah loves those who put their trust in Him." (3:159).  God has promised, and His promise is true, that if we have faith in the One God, we don't assign partners to Him in our worship, we believe in the akhirah and we do good, then, we have nothing to fear.   Put our trust in him and just focus on our iman and good deeds. 

God is Most Merciful, as God most frequently and repeatedly state in the Quran, He is Ar-Rahman.  His Mercy will reign in Akhirah.  "Abu Huraira reported that Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) said:  When Allah created the creation as He was upon the Throne, He put down in His Book: Verily, My mercy predominates My wrath." Sahih Muslim  

So the answer is to surrender fully, put your trust in Allaah and Allaah will be as how His servants deem Him to be. 

Narrated Abu Huraira:
The Prophet (ﷺ) said, "Allah says: 'I am just as My slave thinks I am, (i.e. I am able to do for him what he thinks I can do for him) and I am with him if He remembers Me. If he remembers Me in himself, I too, remember him in Myself; and if he remembers Me in a group of people, I remember him in a group that is better than they; and if he comes one span nearer to Me, I go one cubit nearer to him; and if he comes one cubit nearer to Me, I go a distance of two outstretched arms nearer to him; and if he comes to Me walking, I go to him running.' " Sahih Bukhari

May Allaah grant us humility as His servants, grant us wisdom and understanding, a good iman and a good result in the world and the Hereafter.  Aamiin.

Monday, August 24, 2020

Who to blame for discords in family and friends

Have you, yourself, ever said or did something in the spur of the moment, but regret it right after it happened or even as it was happening - however due to the circumstances do not have the chance to explain or apologise or change it. There are times, we say things or react in a way, we wish we had not. We don't want to. But if we didn't mean to do it, why did we do it anyway? It is from our subconscious mind and syaitan. And insyaaAllaah, both we can slowly overcome, if we habitually remind ourselves and be aware of our words and actions - even if we did not manage to stop it - but we should reflect on it, quickly repent (say astaghfirullah) and TRY our best to avoid it in future. And God knows best. This may also happen to others around us. Always give them this benefit of doubt - that they didn't mean to say or act that way too - most of the time. I believe that everyone has the desire to be good and do good - but sometimes syaitan us off course. Syaitan is human's avowed enemy. In surah Yusuf, Yusuf's brothers were plotting to even kill him, but decided instead to throw him in a well - so maybe someone else will take him away. Like that, Yusuf A.S. was separated from his beloved father for so many many years. I cannot imagine the pain of one losing a child and a child losing his parent. Even then, at the end of it all, Yusuf A.S. forgave his brothers and mentioned of the episode as 'when syaitan had sown dissensions between me and my brothers' (12:100). There is a big lesson for us here. Based on the earlier mentioned consideration and this story of Yusuf A.S. - I also try to have this mindset. When someone among my friends or family does or say (or not say) some thing that may (or may not) have hurt my feelings - I try to remember Yusuf's story. Syaitan has sown it - and syaitan is THE enemy - not our family or friends. With that, it becomes easier to be understanding and to overlook those mistakes and forgive sincerely insyaaAllaah. Then make doa, that Allaah will make us strong and sow love and sincerity in our hearts toward our family, friends and people in general. And that Allaah forgive all of our sins and theirs, for Allaah is Most Merciful and Most Forgiving.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Our address in the universe

I'm currently reading a book called, 'You are Here', by Christopher Potter.

I want to know more about what scientists think about where we are and our place on this insignificantly tiny earth amongst the ever expanding universe, among other awe-inspiring, mind-boggling things.

One interesting 'fact' I learnt from this book, is our address in relation to the universe. :D It is :

(the usual address),
Singapore,
South East Asia,
The Earth, The Solar System,
Orion Arm, The Milky Way,
The Local Group, Virgo supercluster.
Local Supercluster,
The Expanding Universe
& Allahu'alam.

*The last two lines I added myself.

Amazing isn't it. How tiny-puny-minute, tinier than a speck of dust, we are when compared to the other creations of God in the whole indescribably large universe - and yet, how close God is to every single one of us.

NOW, verily, it is We who have created man, and We know what his innermost self whispers within him: for We are closer to him than his neck-vein.
Al Quran, Al Qaf 50:16


Subhanallah.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

doa'

“O Allah! I seek refuge with You from knowledge that does not benefit, and from a heart that is not subdued and humble, and from a supplication that is not heard, and from a self that is not satisfied.”


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Friday, March 27, 2009

to Him we will all return

most of all I wish her well
although it seems impossible
but what am I suppose to do
I can't just sit here and see this thru'

as I look at her on the bed, so frail
I can't help thinking how much I've failed
there's so much more I wish i'd done
to show her my love and appreciation

I hope she is not hurting so much
I hope she's comforted by my touch
I want to lie down there with her
and together I hope, we'll be braver

I think about the life we live
and all the love I've been showered with
I've seen and know how good she is
Her soul is safe, that's how it feels

As I sit here silent, by her bedside
My soul's detached from the world outside
Somehow what's out there feels surreal
They forget the fate with which we're sealed.

Oh God, Oh God, please make her well
Please take away this difficult spell
But if You've decreed it's time for her
Then take her lightly, don't make her suffer

I will continue to pray for her
what's best for now, and the Hereafter
Verily to God, we all belong
and to Him we will all return.


~madame blossom~

***********

this was how I think and felt
as I lay with my late grandma, on her deathbed.
May her soul be in Allah's rahmah. Ameen.

and i dedicate this to my dear sis fiza. though I think and hope, the situation is not exactly the same. For I pray that she will be with you for a longer time. In fact, I even imagine her, still being with you, when you're having ur first baby later. :) Ameen, ameen, ya rabbal a'lamin.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

becoming Muslim, through a good seminary education

I've always been amazed at our new brothers and sisters in Islam, especially the westerners.

Yes, especially the western converts perhaps for these reasons:

1) It's easier to find the stories related to their conversions, compared to people of other ethnicity.
2) They're able to express themselves, and about their conversions, in a clear and moving way.
3) Most of them are well-educated, well-informed individuals, both in the worldly education, in their own former religion, and in Islam.
4) The reasons behind their conversion, so far that I've read, have always been, because of what they see in exemplary Muslims, followed by what they find in the Quran, or directly from what they learn or found in the Quran.
5) They seem to be more sincere, more devout and better Muslims, than a LOT of born-Muslims, and I become inspired by what they experience and see in Islam.

The above does not take into account those who convert just to marry a Muslim and/or Malay woman, but don't know much about the religion they are converting to.

Most of all, I am impressed by conversions of high priests, preachers, pastors, ministers from the Christian religion. I'd like to understand WHY and WHAT made them choose Islam instead.

Quite a long time ago, before I knew or had access to stories of such conversions, I have wondered before.. how a high priest/preacher/pastor/minister/nuns etc.. who have learned about what early Christianity is about - can accept what is happening to the faith and acts of Christians in the modern world. Most bewildering, would be the fact that they LOVE Jesus Christ (A.S) - and yet, not follow his teachings - but they obey the teachings of people who have not even met him before. Don't they question the differences and who the authorities are?

A Christian friend have told me before, and she is a normal worshipper - that ACTUALLY, Christians are not allowed to drink alcohol too, or eat the flesh of swine. The Bible also says, not to worship idols - they are not allowed to have statues etc.. THEN.. why are there statues of Jesus Christ (Isa A.S.) and/or Mary (Maryam A.S.) in ALL some churches? What happened to all these things that Christians are forbidden to do, why are they ignored? I just remember her smiling, unable to answer these questions that are probably in the back of her mind too. Another one answered that it's permitted later on.. later on as in few hundred years after Christ - who permitted them? What powers do they have to change God's laws?

Those are some of the questions that sometimes play in my mind, when I think of our fellow 'People of the Book'

Most of my questions and wondering were answered that time, when I learnt of Dr Jerald, an ex minister in a Methodist Church, with a Master and PhD in Theology studies (studies of Christianity), who converted to Islam. I missed his talk on 'Finding the Light' - about his conversion to Islam. But luckily, that story is in his book, so I read that - and it is interesting by itself. The story is also here on this website. (My eyes welled at the part when he explained his position, about his beliefs to the American Muslim lady, wife of the restaurant owner.)

What I attended was a talk on 'Early Christianity'.

In his talk, he touched on the differences in opinion between the Early Christians and the Contemporary Christians, on the 4 issues, of which I remember 3 - Divinity of Jesus and Trinity, if Jesus was crucified, atonement of the blood (I'm not sure what the last one is about). Notice that it's NOT differences with the Muslims but with Early Christianity.

I can't go into details, because I can't quote back all the Biblical versions and sources, and the different early Christian sects he mentioned in his lectures - I lost track of them - there are so many. But some people at the talk, including some non Muslims, were busy taking down notes or recording the lecture.

Basically what he was trying to explain and show, was what he learnt and found during his seminary education. And basically, what he found was that, Contemporary Christians beliefs and methods, does not agree with what the Early Christians believes, in all the 4 issues he brought up.

And he tried very much, to sound as neutral as possible about what he has studied, without being biased to what the Quran has to say, although he did quote verses from the Quran which agrees with the Early Christians beliefs.

What is also interesting to me, is the person he is, how he chooses what to answer or what not to answer and how he answers them. Two questions asked by the audience that I remember most is :

1) What do you have to say about the phrase in the Bible that says, Jesus said, 'I and the Father are one' (John 10:30)
Dr Jerald paused, with a little exasperated look, then he asked nicely. 'One.. one in what? One in body? One in mission? One in vision? one in.. what?' He stopped at that.

2) How did you become a Muslim?
He said, :When people ask me that, I always ask them if they want the long answer or the short one? But since we've run out of time, I'll give you the short one... 'How did I become a Muslim?' - by having a good seminary education'

:)

Friday, March 13, 2009

Muhammad, the messenger of God

He walked over to the mat where his son-in-law lay, his face covered with a cloak. Their friendship went back so many years - to long before he was a prophet, even before his marriage to Khadijah, back to when they were both bright young prospects in Makkan society. He bent down and kissed the face of his beloved, "Sweet you were in life, and sweet you are in death." He lifted his head gently beween his hands while his tears fell onto the Prophet's face. "O my friend, my chosen one, dearer to me than my father and my mother, the death that God has decreed for you, you have now tasted. After this no death shall ever come to you." With great care, he lowered the Prophet's head onto his pillow, bent again to kiss his face, drew the cover over him, and left the room.

Abu Bakr, who was short, slight of frame and best known for his tender heart and clemency, did not appear to be a natural leader. In fact, his own daughter had once disqualified him from leading the prayer because of his emotional nature. However, the Prophet had seen deeper into him. Reentering the courtyard, Abu Bakr went to the front of the crowd. He called for the people's attention, but Umar, who was still haranguing them, would not allow himself to be interrupted.

The crowd shifted its attention, for the people wanted to hear what Abu Bakr had to say. "For those who worshipped Muhammad..." he began loudly. Umar now turned toward him, and both he and the crowd fell silent. "..know that Muhammad is dead." He continued firmly, "But for those who worship God, know that God lives and never dies!" His voice rose in intensity as he recited,

"Muhammad is but a messenger. Messengers passed away before him; if he dies or is killed, will you turn back on your heels? And whoever turns back on his heels will do no harm to God, and God will reward those who are grateful."

(Al Quran, Ali Imran 3:144)


Umar, stunned by the realization that the Prophet was really dead, fell to his knees, releasing a bereavement that he had refused to accept.

In the future, he would recount how, when Abu Bakr recited those divine words, it had seemed that they were hearing them for the first time.

*Excerpt from Struggling to Surrender, by Jeffrey Lang.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

answer to our problems

"The truth is that all Islamists, violent or not, lack answers to the problems of the modern world. They do not have a world view that can satisfy the aspirations of modern men and women. We (USA) do. That's the most powerful weapon of all. "
Extracted from "Learning to Live with Radical Islam" by Fareed Zakaria, Newsweek, March 9, 2009 edition.

The part about lacking answers to the problems of the modern world, is sadly true. But not because Islam does not have the answers, but Muslims, do not want to find see the answers. The answers are clear. Muslims, especially the ustazs and the imams and the Muslim leaders, need to look at themselves and the community they are leading. Are they moving with time? Which by the way, is exactly the topic of discussion, in the talk by Professor Abdulaziz Sachedina (from University of Virginia). The issues of Muslim Ethics in the Modern World.

It is scary to think that the US thinks, they have the answers for Muslims on how to live in the modern world. I don't know in what specific area they think they have answers.. but generally, that is a scary view. Because I'm sure, they need to find THEIR OWN ANSWERS too. Most of their people, known to us, are either greedy, selfish, living in their own world, drunkard, perverts or some or all of the above. Are these the people whom we want to get our answers from??

No doubt, there are good things coming out from the US, I will not deny that. Things like their determination in pursuing what they believe in, their advancements in technology and scientific studies, their interests in writing and reading books, their keen ability to analyse things - that they can even produce a whole book about eating burgers. (Someone suggested that I write a book about the slow service and long queue at Popeye's). These, or most of these are good things we can follow and probably get answers.

However, in the area of running a country, reducing crime rates, providing education, promoting intellectuals, finding happiness.. we can find the answers in our own religion. We can find the examples of a good leader in many of our Islamic history, we can reduce crime rates and ameliorate social issues by following the Syaria law, compassionately and intelligently, education is one of the important tenets in Islam that is an order. Another area of expertise that I have not even heard of, existing in any other religion - is the study of authenticity.

Islam is very much capable of solving issues of the modern world, it's only the Muslims, who are not very capable yet and have to look deeper into themselves and learn to tackle them.

This entry, is my thought, and my prayer - that Islam can succeed, just with Muslims being good Muslims. Ameen. ALL the time, it's not Islam that fails us, it's the Muslims that have failed Islam and in turn failed ourselves.

But what can I say, I guess the problem lies all around.. not only in the Muslim world. Like Abu Hayan al-Tauhidi (d. after 1009 CE), a medieval humanist said, "Man has become a problem for man."

And I say, "Man's ONLY problem IS man."

May we be guided to become better Muslims, and be able to make this world a better place, no matter how little. Ameen.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Barack Hussein Obama's inauguration speech in full.

Barack Obama has been sworn in as the 44th US president. Here is his inauguration speech in full.

"My fellow citizens:

I stand here today humbled by the task before us, grateful for the trust you have bestowed, mindful of the sacrifices borne by our ancestors. I thank President Bush for his service to our nation, as well as the generosity and co-operation he has shown throughout this transition.

Forty-four Americans have now taken the presidential oath. The words have been spoken during rising tides of prosperity and the still waters of peace. Yet, every so often the oath is taken amidst gathering clouds and raging storms.

At these moments, America has carried on not simply because of the skill or vision of those in high office, but because we, the people, have remained faithful to the ideals of our forbearers, and true to our founding documents.

So it has been. So it must be with this generation of Americans.

Serious challenges

That we are in the midst of crisis is now well understood. Our nation is at war, against a far-reaching network of violence and hatred. Our economy is badly weakened, a consequence of greed and irresponsibility on the part of some, but also our collective failure to make hard choices and prepare the nation for a new age. Homes have been lost; jobs shed; businesses shuttered. Our health care is too costly; our schools fail too many; and each day brings further evidence that the ways we use energy strengthen our adversaries and threaten our planet. We have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord.

These are the indicators of crisis, subject to data and statistics. Less measurable but no less profound is a sapping of confidence across our land - a nagging fear that America's decline is inevitable, and that the next generation must lower its sights.

Today I say to you that the challenges we face are real. They are serious and they are many. They will not be met easily or in a short span of time. But know this, America - they will be met.

On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord.

On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn out dogmas, that for far too long have strangled our politics.

Nation of 'risk-takers'

We remain a young nation, but in the words of scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.

In reaffirming the greatness of our nation, we understand that greatness is never a given. It must be earned. Our journey has never been one of short-cuts or settling for less. It has not been the path for the faint-hearted - for those who prefer leisure over work, or seek only the pleasures of riches and fame. Rather, it has been the risk-takers, the doers, the makers of things - some celebrated but more often men and women obscure in their labour, who have carried us up the long, rugged path towards prosperity and freedom.

For us, they packed up their few worldly possessions and travelled across oceans in search of a new life.

For us, they toiled in sweatshops and settled the West; endured the lash of the whip and ploughed the hard earth.

For us, they fought and died, in places like Concord and Gettysburg; Normandy and Khe Sahn.

'Remaking America'

Time and again these men and women struggled and sacrificed and worked till their hands were raw so that we might live a better life. They saw America as bigger than the sum of our individual ambitions; greater than all the differences of birth or wealth or faction. The state of the economy calls for action, bold and swift

This is the journey we continue today. We remain the most prosperous, powerful nation on earth. Our workers are no less productive than when this crisis began. Our minds are no less inventive, our goods and services no less needed than they were last week or last month or last year. Our capacity remains undiminished. But our time of standing pat, of protecting narrow interests and putting off unpleasant decisions - that time has surely passed. Starting today, we must pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and begin again the work of remaking America.

For everywhere we look, there is work to be done. The state of the economy calls for action, bold and swift, and we will act - not only to create new jobs, but to lay a new foundation for growth. We will build the roads and bridges, the electric grids and digital lines that feed our commerce and bind us together. We will restore science to its rightful place, and wield technology's wonders to raise health care's quality and lower its cost. We will harness the sun and the winds and the soil to fuel our cars and run our factories. And we will transform our schools and colleges and universities to meet the demands of a new age. All this we can do. All this we will do.

Restoring trust

Now, there are some who question the scale of our ambitions - who suggest that our system cannot tolerate too many big plans. Their memories are short. For they have forgotten what this country has already done; what free men and women can achieve when imagination is joined to common purpose, and necessity to courage. We reject as false the choice between our safety and our ideals

What the cynics fail to understand is that the ground has shifted beneath them - that the stale political arguments that have consumed us for so long no longer apply.

The question we ask today is not whether our government is too big or too small, but whether it works - whether it helps families find jobs at a decent wage, care they can afford, a retirement that is dignified. Where the answer is yes, we intend to move forward. Where the answer is no, programs will end. And those of us who manage the public's dollars will be held to account - to spend wisely, reform bad habits, and do our business in the light of day - because only then can we restore the vital trust between a people and their government.

Nor is the question before us whether the market is a force for good or ill. Its power to generate wealth and expand freedom is unmatched, but this crisis has reminded us that without a watchful eye, the market can spin out of control - that a nation cannot prosper long when it favours only the prosperous. The success of our economy has always depended not just on the size of our gross domestic product, but on the reach of our prosperity; on the ability to extend opportunity to every willing heart - not out of charity, but because it is the surest route to our common good.

'Ready to lead'

As for our common defence, we reject as false the choice between our safety and our ideals. Our founding fathers, faced with perils we can scarcely imagine, drafted a charter to assure the rule of law and the rights of man, a charter expanded by the blood of generations. Those ideals still light the world, and we will not give them up for expedience's sake. And so to all other peoples and governments who are watching today, from the grandest capitals to the small village where my father was born: know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman, and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity, and we are ready to lead once more. We will not apologise for our way of life, nor will we waver in its defence


Recall that earlier generations faced down fascism and communism not just with missiles and tanks, but with the sturdy alliances and enduring convictions. They understood that our power alone cannot protect us, nor does it entitle us to do as we please. Instead, they knew that our power grows through its prudent use; our security emanates from the justness of our cause, the force of our example, the tempering qualities of humility and restraint.

We are the keepers of this legacy. Guided by these principles once more, we can meet those new threats that demand even greater effort - even greater cooperation and understanding between nations. We will begin to responsibly leave Iraq to its people, and forge a hard-earned peace in Afghanistan. With old friends and former foes, we will work tirelessly to lessen the nuclear threat, and roll back the spectre of a warming planet. We will not apologise for our way of life, nor will we waver in its defence, and for those who seek to advance their aims by inducing terror and slaughtering innocents, we say to you now that our spirit is stronger and cannot be broken; you cannot outlast us, and we will defeat you.

'Era of peace'

For we know that our patchwork heritage is a strength, not a weakness. We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus - and non-believers. We are shaped by every language and culture, drawn from every end of this earth; and because we have tasted the bitter swill of civil war and segregation, and emerged from that dark chapter stronger and more united, we cannot help but believe that the old hatreds shall someday pass; that the lines of tribe shall soon dissolve; that as the world grows smaller, our common humanity shall reveal itself; and that America must play its role in ushering in a new era of peace.

To the Muslim world, we seek a new way forward, based on mutual interest and mutual respect. To those leaders around the globe who seek to sow conflict, or blame their society's ills on the West - know that your people will judge you on what you can build, not what you destroy. To those who cling to power through corruption and deceit and the silencing of dissent, know that you are on the wrong side of history; but that we will extend a hand if you are willing to unclench your fist.

To the people of poor nations, we pledge to work alongside you to make your farms flourish and let clean waters flow; to nourish starved bodies and feed hungry minds. And to those nations like ours that enjoy relative plenty, we say we can no longer afford indifference to suffering outside our borders; nor can we consume the world's resources without regard to effect. For the world has changed, and we must change with it.

'Duties'

As we consider the road that unfolds before us, we remember with humble gratitude those brave Americans who, at this very hour, patrol far-off deserts and distant mountains. They have something to tell us, just as the fallen heroes who lie in Arlington whisper through the ages. We honour them not only because they are guardians of our liberty, but because they embody the spirit of service; a willingness to find meaning in something greater than themselves. And yet, at this moment - a moment that will define a generation - it is precisely this spirit that must inhabit us all. What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility

For as much as government can do and must do, it is ultimately the faith and determination of the American people upon which this nation relies. It is the kindness to take in a stranger when the levees break, the selflessness of workers who would rather cut their hours than see a friend lose their job which sees us through our darkest hours. It is the firefighter's courage to storm a stairway filled with smoke, but also a parent's willingness to nurture a child, that finally decides our fate.

Our challenges may be new. The instruments with which we meet them may be new. But those values upon which our success depends - honesty and hard work, courage and fair play, tolerance and curiosity, loyalty and patriotism - these things are old. These things are true. They have been the quiet force of progress throughout our history. What is demanded then is a return to these truths.

What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility - a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation, and the world, duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task.

'Gift of freedom'

This is the price and the promise of citizenship.

This is the source of our confidence - the knowledge that God calls on us to shape an uncertain destiny.

This is the meaning of our liberty and our creed - why men and women and children of every race and every faith can join in celebration across this magnificent mall, and why a man whose father less than 60 years ago might not have been served at a local restaurant can now stand before you to take a most sacred oath.

So let us mark this day with remembrance, of who we are and how far we have travelled. In the year of America's birth, in the coldest of months, a small band of patriots huddled by dying campfires on the shores of an icy river. The capital was abandoned. The enemy was advancing. The snow was stained with blood. At a moment when the outcome of our revolution was most in doubt, the father of our nation ordered these words be read to the people:

"Let it be told to the future world... that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive... that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet [it]."

America. In the face of our common dangers, in this winter of our hardship, let us remember these timeless words. With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children's children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God's grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.

Thank you. God bless you. And God bless the United States of America. "

*source from BBC.com. Highlighted are those that moved me.*

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

keeping in check

"I think, you must go, 'mandi air bunga' ah.." my good neighbour, Sam said. We were in the lift, and talking about the cash card theft. "..that day, M'sia accident, then now this.. i think maybe sometimes.. you got to believe in these things la ah.. " Hubby and I, just laughed at that.

I'm not going to 'mandi air bunga' - unless it's only to make me smell nice.

I've been thinking about the events happening over the past few weeks/months.

When we got the keys to the new house, we were elated. Then, we managed to sell our current house at our intended price... very happy. We planned and prepared for the new house. I got a new camera. We both have jobs, we can afford reasonable things we want. We were excited, buying things for the new house.. So many things to thank Allah for. All seemed well.

"Then, when they forgot that whereof they had been reminded, We opened unto them the gates of all things till, even as they were rejoicing in that which they were given, We seized them unawares, and lo! they were dumbfounded."
Al Quran, Al - An'am 6: 44


Na'udzubillah. I don't want that to happen to us. As such, I'm strangely kind of glad, or relieved, these things happened - and within what I can, with Allah's help, handle. Now, I know God is keeping me in check. Alhamdulillah. I should be more worried if there were totally no trials for us.

BUT STILL, we pray...

"Our Lord! Take us not to task if we forget or fall into error. Our Lord! Lay not upon us such a burden as You did lay upon those before us. Our Lord! Impose not on us that which we have not the strength to bear, grant us forgiveness and have mercy on us. You are our Protector. Help us against those who deny the truth."
Al Quran, Al Baqarah 2:286


Ameen, ya rabbal a'lamin.

Monday, May 26, 2008

comfort & material progress : the real deity?

I am currently reading 'The Road to Mecca' by Muhammad Asad, which I may write more on, after I'm done devouring it. I love it, and I'm only one fifth through.

I just feel the need to highlight this part (although the other parts are just as interesting and/or thought-provoking) because I see too, that this is how most of us are, in the world today. He was describing the state of the European youths, of which he was one, in the 1920s..

It's real deity, I saw, was no longer of a spiritual kind : it was Comfort..... the manual worker or the intellectual seem to know only one positive faith : the worship of material progress, the belief that there could be no other goal in life than to make that very life continually easier.... The temples of that faith is the gigantic factories, cinemas, chemical laboratories, dance-halls, hydroelectric works; and it's priests were the bankers, engineers, politicians, film stars, statisticians....

....I saw how confused and unhappy our life had become...


And in today's world, the pull towards those false deities, is even greater than ever. We MUST keep ourselves in check.

Questions we need to ask ourselves every time:

1. Are we truly happy, contented, sure of ourselves, our needs and wants?
(2-3 hours of sheer happiness or blissfulness with friends without any care for the world, against a whole week of emptiness, loneliness and confusion when you're alone, does not count as 'true happiness', For those are really only ILLUSIONS of happiness and they are so short-lived.)

2. Where are we heading to?

3. Who (or what) do we sacrifice most of our time and effort for? Who do we serve? Who is our real deity?

May Allah makes us and always keep us among the guided. Ameeeeen.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

struggling to surrender

yesterday, hubby and I, went to listen to Jeffrey Lang, talk on 'struggling to surrender'. He was born a catholic, turned atheist and then became a Muslim.

He became an atheist because he had this very big issue with what's happening in the world. If there is a God, he questioned, why then do people have to suffer? He contented himself, by believing that there was probably no God, therefore the sufferings. It was an easy way out.

the talk yesterday, was about how he perceived the Quran, while he was still an atheist. As a mathematician, he placed even more thought and depth into each and every word he reads in the Quran. He spoke about his train of thoughts, as he reads the verses from the Quran. I can't list them all, it'd be too long. But it was interesting. I'm sure it's there in his books.

And from the Quran, he began to understand and accept the reason for the trials and tribulations of our earthly lives and our roles here. He surrenders himself to Allah. This is the journey of a person, who sincerely wants to find the Truth. And God guides whom He wills.

His talk, inspires me to draw more guidance, by reading the Quran - not just reading the Arabic words.. but also to understand the very meaning of the verses.

Do we, borned Muslims, understand and accept our lives as he does?
Do we seek our guidance from the Quran, the Book of Guidance? Guidance for the muttaqin (those who earnestly try to ward off evil).
Are we among the muttaqins?

May we be among the muttaqins, the guided. Ameen.

p.s. n2f, i can't discuss the many interesting views of the verses, he spoke about here. Too many side comments that I have with it. Too long to dwell into here. We'll discuss it when we meet. insyaAllah. :)

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

to be patient

Eema was telling us in the car last night, about how some kids were distorting her name and calling her that. Hanaa, Nadhrah, Eema and me, discussed about the options for responding to those. She could tell them off, like "would you like others to change your name and make fun of it?" Or.. she could just totally ignore them, until they call her by her proper name. I also added, that she could be patient and forgiving too.

Then, she asked me a very good question. HOW to practise patience? (translated from "umiy, macamana nak 'sabar'?)

I told her : by remembering that Allah knows and Allah sees and Allah hears. Allah is observing how we are reacting, see if we are patient. So, on the positive side, we can get more pahala for this!...if we are patient. THAT's something to be happy about.

Then, we can also pity them (who distorted her name), because only childish and narrow minded people do these kind of things - it's a handicap we try to avoid having. InsyaAllah some kids will grow out of it - but there are others who carry the handicap throughout their adult life. Kesian kan?

When I was younger I was quite stubborn and emotional and sensitive sometimes. But now, I'm glad I am able to control any situation better than before. It may not be the best yet.. but better than before, masyaAllah (with Allah's will). When I find myself getting worked up over anything, I stop myself, I take a deep breath, and sing think ~everything I do.... I do it for God.~

Yes, it's quite simple really, when it sets in.
Oh, but.. terms and conditions apply.


Terms and conditions.
The person must believe in God and Judgement Day.
The person prays and remember God always. When he remembers God, God will remember him. And he will then be guided to the right and successful path, as God wills.

Monday, April 07, 2008

there's no need to complicate

I have been busy, either physically and/or mentally. I feel like I have been, sometimes, distant from family and friends. Maybe I was also quite distant from myself.

Anyhow, I was thinking about so many things. Most of them, I cannot do anything about, yet.

Then I teringat what the ulama' Aa-Gym said. (ok wait..I know i said before, I don't quite favour him..but I guess he is alright - he is human after all. And I do not know him well enough to judge him. In fact, nobody knows anybody good enough to pass a judgement - Allah knows best - teringat criter Nabi Khidir. No, it has nothing to do with Aa-Gym's polygamy issue. I'm fine with that).

Let me see if I can recall his 5 points to a....err..i forgot the title of the ceramah, maybe it was.'5 points to a happier life?' Anyway, that's not important. What's important is the 5 points, which to me, applies to our God-conscious life in general. I'm going to summarise like crazy here.. his talk was about 45 mins long. Here goes.


1. Siap (Ready) - ready to face whatever comes.. how?.. as follows..

2. Redha (acceptance) - things happen by Allah's will, and is a test for us.. so redha and get on with it.

3. Jangan mempersulitkan diri (Don't complicate), Eh, macam dalam lagu jason mraz.:p So anyway.. yah.. most of the time, the problem is bearable, but it is made bigger, by the person himself - the complains, the exaggerated heart ache etc.

4. Evaluasi diri (Evaluate yourself) - find within yourself, the reason for the thing that happened and how you can change that.

5. Hmm.. frankly, I don't REALLY remember point 5, but I'm quite sure it's Berdoa and 'Tawakkal', berserah pada Allah SWT. - it's only logical and natural. We go back to God for help.


I'll have to take his advice. I've already set my plans for if/when something happens. I cannot do anything about it NOW, except doa. So yup, I am ready, I accept, I won't complicate, I'll review, i'll doa and tawakkal.. and relax.



p.s. I have some pictures of the beautiful sky and clouds at sunrise, and the Irsyad High Tea event last Saturday (which is in no way related to the sunrise). Irsyadee and Taufik Batisah performed, not at sunrise, at the high tea of course. I want to try to post those later from home.. if I'm not mentally and/or physically busy. :p

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

doing it with love

Once upon a long long time ago, hubby and I were strolling on the streets in Gold Coast, Australia, when I noticed a trash truck slowing down. A man in t-shirt and denim jumpsuit, shades and headphones on, got off and walked to the beat of whatever he was listening to, towards the trash bin. He picked it up, emptied it and was on his way, still to the beat playing on his headphones. I remember thinking.. 'the way this fella does his job, it's like it's the best job in the world..' And seeing him also makes me think that the job of a cleaner, don't look bad at all! In fact, it looks like fun - how that man was doing it.

And I remember it to this day. And sometimes I'd be thinking.. imagining.. hoping..to see that kind of attitude, especially for the blue collared workers and the younger ones. Ada jugak ah I nampak.. kadang2 budak2 yang jual Ramly Burgers tu.. macam enjoy kerja diorang. That's good.

Cause u know.. every decent job is important. Kalau tak ada orang nak buat.. kecoh jugak jadinya. Imagine if nobody wants to empty trash bins or clean toilets. Boleh jadi national crisis...

You have to have some 'L-O-V-E' for the job you're doing . The determination to do the best you can, no matter what it is that you're doing. Cause every job we do, is for the benefit of another. Every job is an ibadah, when you do it with the intention to give the best, to the person receiving the product of your job. In the end, it will bring satisfaction to yourself. Especially bila kerja tu.. kita buat lillah, kerana Allah SWT - it's even more noble.

U know, I can sometimes see or even TASTE the difference in the food of a cook who loves his job, and the one who is preparing the food, just for the sake of earning. Serious!
U'll be able to see/taste it, especially if you frequent the particular foodstall.

Therefore we shud give our best in whatever it is that we're doing. And I'm not just talking about our jobs.. even our other tasks lah - apa2 pun. masak ke, mop rumah ke, kemas katil ke, cuci toilet ke... InsyaAllah, we'll be more contented and happy. I'm reminding myself too!!

There is a saying (which was quoted to be a hadith, but I really cannot find or confirm the source. One mentioned that it's from Imam Muslim - I cannot locate it. Then on another article it is said to be from Imam Tamadhi - whom I've not heard of so far, Imam Tirmidhi, I know. If anyone knows of the exact source of this saying, please inform me).

It says "Allah loves a person whom when he does a job, he does the job dilligently and to the best of his ability. " The arabic word used is 'amali tuqinah' which means 'does a job diligently and to the best of his ability'. Some arabic words are just so rich in meaning.

Allahua'lam.

Happy working!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

What I know about the hijrah year.

Salam Ma'al Hijrah 1429

1. Who established the Islamic Year and when was it established?
Saiyidina Umar Al-Khattab established it, marking the year of the hijrah as the start of the Islamic calendar, because it was an important turning point for the Muslims. It was established about 17 years after the actual hijrah, with the consensus of his scholars and advisors.

2. What should we do at the start of the new Hijrah year?
We COULD reflect on the event of the hijrah and together try to understand the REAL meaning of Hijrah.

3. What about that do'a awal tahun akhir tahun.
As far as I know, and can (can't) see, there isn't ANY hadith mentioning this. Especially on the 'fadhilat' of doing the supplication 3 times and so on. So, doing it with the i'tikad that you'll get the fadhilat is bid'ah like concocting a new ibadah in your religion, not instructed by Allah SWT or Rasulullah, and this is forbidden. I believe it's only among the Malays.

I imagined how it may have started. Maybe some fella asked his ustaz.. what shud we do on the start of the new islamic year. Like the Westerners, they celebrate the New Year.. can we?. So maybe the ustaz said.. we shouldn't celebrate like the westerners especially with booze and immoral behaviours. If you want to do something.. why don't you just supplicate, doa - that the past year and the coming year brings good to you.. etc.. PERHAPS when you read it, the syaitan will 'blah blah blah' (see the 'fadhilat' baca doa). And so the man did.. and passed on this to his family and children.. and VERY soon, it became a die-die-must-do tradition. MAYBE. Yes, I have wild and great imaginations.

Anyhow, if you want to continue reading the doa, just because you want to doa - not for any specific reasons, I guess it's ok to do so, but NOT because you THINK it is something expected of a Muslim on the Muslim New Year.

4. Anything special about the month of Muharram?
It is mentioned by the Prophet, to be one of the 4 sacred months, mentioned in the Quran. On the 10th of Muharram, day of Asyura, we are encouraged to fast for 2 days, 9th and 10th. This is to differentiate our practise, from the practise of Jews and Christians.

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The number of months in the sight of Allah is twelve (in a year)- so ordained by Him the day He created the heavens and the earth; of them four are sacred: that is the straight usage. So wrong not yourselves therein, and fight the Pagans all together as they fight you all together. But know that Allah is with those who restrain themselves.

Al Quran, At-Tauba 9:36

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Narrated Abu Bakra:

The Prophet said. "(The division of time has turned to its original form which was current when Allah created the Heavens and the Earths. The year is of twelve months, out of which four months are sacred: Three are in succession Dhul-Qa' da, Dhul-Hijja and Muharram, and (the fourth is) Rajab of (the tribe of) Mudar which comes between Jumadi-ath-Thaniyah and Sha ban."
(Sohih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 54, Number 419)

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Narrated Ibn 'Abbas:

When the Prophet came to Medina, he found (the Jews) fasting on the day of 'Ashura' (i.e. 10th of Muharram). They used to say: "This is a great day on which Allah saved Moses and drowned the folk of Pharaoh. Moses observed the fast on this day, as a sign of gratitude to Allah." The Prophet said, "I am closer to Moses than they." So, he observed the fast (on that day) and ordered the Muslims to fast on it.
(Sahih Bukhari Volume 4, Book 55, Number 609)

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Narrated 'Aisha:

The people used to fast on 'Ashura (the tenth day of the month of Muharram) before the fasting of Ramadan was made obligatory. And on that day the Ka'ba used to be covered with a cover. When Allah made the fasting of the month of Ramadan compulsory, Allah's Apostle said, "Whoever wishes to fast (on the day of 'Ashura') may do so; and whoever wishes to leave it can do so."
(Sahih Bukhari Volume 2, Book 26, Number 662)



Sources :
IslamOnline : Umar Al-Khattab
About.com : Islam : What is the Hijrah Calendar?
IslamOnline : Can we celebrate Hijrah
IslamOnline : Fasting the 9th and 10th of Muharram

ps: This is as far as I know. Correct me if I'm wrong, advise me if I miss anything. But please provide authentic dalil and/or sources with it.
Allahu'alam.

Have a great day!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Is God a Mathematician?

When I'm at the library or bookshop kan, sometimes I'd browse through books that I think I am interested in, but don't think I'll finish reading, because it can be too dry.

Like the other day, I was browsing through these 2 interesting books : 'The Golden Ratio: The Story of PHI, the World's Most Astonishing Number ' by Mario Livio and the other one is 'Just Six Numbers: The Deep Forces That Shape the Universe' by Martin Rees.

I'm not going to bore you AND ME, with the details, but enough to say, scientists found that the universe were built on VERY specific numbers. If that specific number was any greater or smaller by the slightest bit, the universe would not have existed at all. Everything is ruled by specific numbers from atoms to growths and gases, light, speed, dimensions. Subhanallah! kan??

But we must be reminded, that man has very very LIMITED knowledge, and this is only what they have found. And Allah is All-Wise and All-Knowing.

And I believe, that if we are to increase our iman and aqidah, we need stop looking at our world through our own tiny keyholes pinholes, and start to be aware, and appreciate the creations in the heaven and earth, to understand the precision of it all, in order to understand how GREAT Allah is, to feel it, when we say 'Allahu Akbar'.

Behold! in the creation of the heavens and the earth, and the alternation of night and day,- there are indeed Signs for men of understanding,

Al Quran, Al-Imran 3:190



Then, one of the chapter titles in the book, The Story of PHI, caught my attention. 'Is God a Mathematician?'

I didn't bother reading that chapter, because I know, whatever is going to be said in that chapter, is the conjecture, the guess, of a mere single man, this author.

And at once, when I read that question, I know I have the answer already, because God told us in the Quran.

Verily, all things have We created in proportion and measure

Al Qamar 54:49


Glorify the name of thy Guardian-Lord Most High,
Who hath created, and further, given order and proportion;

Al A'la 87:1-2



Allahu Akbar!

Thursday, November 01, 2007

the forgetful beings we are

It's very easy to get absorbed into this world and forget our final destination.

We work, play, laugh, watch tv, entertain ourselves - with no slight thought whatsoever that today or tonight, may be the time, when the angel of death, in charge of us - will carry out his duty, as ordained by Allah SWT.

Sometimes even in doing 'ibadah', (e.g. going for syarahan or giving syarahan, reciting the Quran, advising others etc), we lose our focus or forget the root intentions, and get absorbed in wanting to 'win' the situation or prove something only to ourselves or to others. No longer is the intention for Allah SWT.

So how can we constantly remind ourselves of Allah SWT, of our purpose in life, and our final destination?

I believe that is one of the purpose of our 5 daily prayers. Just like.. why do you think, in schools, we need to say the pledge and sing the national anthem every morning? But Allah knows best - once a day is not enough.

That would also explain why 5 prayers grouped, only to be done at night - will not work. That's besides the fact that we don't even know if it will be accepted by Allah SWT.

We are truly forgetful beings. and Allah knows best, we NEED to be reminded constantly.

With the properly done 5 daily prayers, insyaAllah, we can be in 'constant' reminder. Of course not constant by Rasulullah SAW standards, only constant by our weak standards. Weak as in, even there, right after prayers, while still on the praying mat, I can start to forget. :/

But the efforts and sincere intention counts, I believe.
So we keep on trying.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

syahid. ameen.

I'm listening to ungu.
Andai ku tahu.
Pasal ajal. pasal mati.

Makes me think about him, someone close to someone close to me, who just passed away. He met with an accident on his way back from the mosque, on the eve of Syawal and was unconscious for 2 days before he passed away.

He was amongst us, but his time, his journey in this world is over. And sooner or later, ours too.

My doa is that dia mati syahid. Ameen. Cause he came back from doing something GOOD. MasyaAllah.. he completed his deeds in Ramadhan, before his time was up.

Unlike some deaths that i've read about, yang pasal mabuk, or mati pasal gang fights or mati kena tembak lepas merompak. Nauzubillah.

May we die in a noble state, in iman. Ameen.

That's what i've been thinking about, on and off, in the last few days.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

what's playing at mcd

Hari tu kan.. last Sunday.. we had to quickly go to McD because the food for sahur kat masjid, da habis. Maybe they didn't expect too many people to turn up.

Now guess what I heard playing on mcd's speakers..

I was hearing Quran recitations!

Apparently they had turned on to a local Malay station, which normally plays Quran recitations before azan for subuh..

Who would ever think that you'd hear the Quran playing at mcD?

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Very soon, I'll have to help my MIL anyam ketupat.
You all know how to?

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