within my neurons

"multiple personality disorder - a psychological disorder where a person possesses more than one developed personality" - don't we all?

Come take a dive into the deep end of my head

*unplugged* - when used in an email or letter or any writings of sorts, it means that it's not proofread or edited. So any grammatical or spelling errors.. or sentences or words that doesn't seem to make sense, should be deciphered or ignored - whichever is easier to do.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

bila rumah dibuka

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ


sat tu, terpikir..'waah besok ramai orang datang..'
terus da rasa penat.
so i rested on sat, not.

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oooh.. sorry!

I think I owe credits.

Yes, I want to thank these people for the food and the fun.

Rus (di import khas dari jawa barat) : ayam mati, soto2
My mum-in-law, chef inab : satay goreng, kuah satay, mee-siam, lepat, serunding, burgerdale
Cik Yan : Chicken salad
Cik Alin : Choc cup cakes
Cik Nyah : Green fruit cocktail

thank you all!! i love u all very much! (bukan pasal makan aje)

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Thursday, October 25, 2007

human trafficking

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

I saw a movie the other day, about human trafficking
At the end of the movie, it says that apparently 800,000 humans, including boys, girls, teenagers and women are being trafficked across international borders each year.
Humans are being trafficked for sickening sex trade, slavery or forced labour.

You know, the news we read about all those missing girls and boys, who have never been found?... I can't help wondering if they have gone missing under this exact circumstance. Imagine 800,000 human a year.

In the movie, they showed the different ways they get their victims. E.g. Having an audition for modeling project overseas to select their victims. Or in another case, a man deceived a woman by pretending to be crazy about her - and then lead her to the 'agents' where she was then locked, raped, threatened and finally sent to another country. Then as for the young boys and girls - there are some very poor parents with many kids in the under developed nations, who would sell one of their children to the agents, for some money. Then there are others who are just kidnapped in broad daylight.

Those people who does the kidnapping or deception, will then sell the humans they caught, to the traffickers.

Some kids fall sick from very bad living conditions and health and they die, before they are shipped out. - I think these are the more lucky ones out of those victims. Of course the luckiest ones, would be the ones being saved before the whole thing ruins their mental health and lives. But it's hard to imagine how they can be normal people after that.

Astaghfirullah. This is not just a movie. It's really happening.
It's sad, that in our region like in Singapore and Malaysia.. so far, I've never heard or seen this term being mentioned in the news. Which leads me to believe that in our region, these animals have been able to do it without being exposed. How else can you explain children who disappear just like that?

Ya Allah! SAVE our children from ever being subjected to such cruelties. Ameen.

THINK about it.

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unplanned, coordinated

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

"Oh look! we're wearing the same socks."

heh.. now that she's mentioned it, i just realised it looked like we planned what we'd wear that day.




that unplanned thing was ok.

Have you ever terserempak dengan a neighbour, whom you don't know quite well, but to whom you'd just smile and he'd greet you with obvious questions like 'hi', 'gi kerja?', 'baru balik?', 'tinggal sini?'
I'm fine with that, until for that few days, i saw this neighbour in the morning and in the evening, and the next morning and the next evening - sampaikan.. when I saw him again. i was like 'alamaaaaaaaak!'

It was becoming quite an uncomfortable unplanned thing.
Because i don't like to smile ALL the time.

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Monday, October 22, 2007

dah nak hujan..

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

See that.. awan sarat dengan hujan..



Seest thou not that Allah makes the clouds move gently, then joins them together, then makes them into a heap? - then wilt thou see rain issue forth from their midst. And He sends down from the sky mountain masses (of clouds) wherein is hail: He strikes therewith whom He pleases and He turns it away from whom He pleases, the vivid flash of His lightning well-nigh blinds the sight.

أَلَمْ تَرَ أَنَّ اللَّهَ يُزْجِي سَحَابًا ثُمَّ يُؤَلِّفُ بَيْنَهُ ثُمَّ يَجْعَلُهُ رُكَامًا فَتَرَى الْوَدْقَ يَخْرُجُ مِنْ خِلَالِهِ وَيُنَزِّلُ مِنَ السَّمَاء مِن جِبَالٍ فِيهَا مِن بَرَدٍ فَيُصِيبُ بِهِ مَن يَشَاء وَيَصْرِفُهُ عَن مَّن يَشَاء يَكَادُ سَنَا بَرْقِهِ يَذْهَبُ بِالْأَبْصَارِ

Al Quran, An-Nour 24:43





p.s. oh how i miss my olympus!!! :'(

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this raya.. part 2

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ



this raya ada orange and pepsi.
this raya ada iman.
this raya ada bola.
this raya multi colour.
this raya banyak seafood.




and syawal open houses is not over.

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Saturday, October 20, 2007

keeping it to yourself

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

sometimes most of the time, you cannot and should not, express or reveal what you feel or think or dream.

even nice ones.

you may get into trouble.

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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

syahid. ameen.

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

I'm listening to ungu.
Andai ku tahu.
Pasal ajal. pasal mati.

Makes me think about him, someone close to someone close to me, who just passed away. He met with an accident on his way back from the mosque, on the eve of Syawal and was unconscious for 2 days before he passed away.

He was amongst us, but his time, his journey in this world is over. And sooner or later, ours too.

My doa is that dia mati syahid. Ameen. Cause he came back from doing something GOOD. MasyaAllah.. he completed his deeds in Ramadhan, before his time was up.

Unlike some deaths that i've read about, yang pasal mabuk, or mati pasal gang fights or mati kena tembak lepas merompak. Nauzubillah.

May we die in a noble state, in iman. Ameen.

That's what i've been thinking about, on and off, in the last few days.

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Monday, October 15, 2007

this raya...

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ




..and of course.. we're not done visiting yet.

adat.


* that first pic tu actually is a 2nd try.
The first time, is when we arrived.
I tried to take pictures of the kids in the lift la.. skali just before the door close, 3 apeks got in.
The kids were already told to wave at the camera. So the kids did la.. then si apek2 ni.. wave balik kat diorang.
apa dah..

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Thursday, October 11, 2007

what's playing at mcd

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Hari tu kan.. last Sunday.. we had to quickly go to McD because the food for sahur kat masjid, da habis. Maybe they didn't expect too many people to turn up.

Now guess what I heard playing on mcd's speakers..

I was hearing Quran recitations!

Apparently they had turned on to a local Malay station, which normally plays Quran recitations before azan for subuh..

Who would ever think that you'd hear the Quran playing at mcD?

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Very soon, I'll have to help my MIL anyam ketupat.
You all know how to?

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member2 opis


eema merajuk


motor atuk


nadh before iftar

nadh after iftar =D



iman, hadi's ONLY boy cuz, for now

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Saturday, October 06, 2007

why my children should not read the english papers

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

I can't take it anymore.
This was sent to SPH and MDA today.

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To : SPH
Cc : MDA

Dear sirs and madams,

I would like to express how disturbed I am by the pictures of almost naked women, that you splashed over page 30 of the New Paper today, dated 6th October 2007.

I believe it is NOT APPROPRIATE for children to see. I haven't bought any kind of men's magazines, but I'm sure, those are exactly the kind of pictures that you would put in those magazines, which is restricted to children.

This is also not the first time, that the paper have shown inappropriate images over it's pages.

It's exactly because of this, that I feel uncomfortable, if my children were allowed to read the English papers. I don't feel safe, because I don't know what kind of inappropriate images my children will be exposed to.

Gone are the days, when we can simply encourage the children to read the English newspapers to improve their English.

I hope the paper will realise that they have a general audience which includes children as young as 7 years old. This paper is not rated. So kindly be more sensitive to what kind of images you want to show in your papers.

Continuing to show these kind of images, to me, means that the paper think that it is perfectly alright, for children to see these images. Or, the paper agrees that it requires parental guidance.

The paper's sensitivity and careful consideration is very much appreciated.

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SPH - Singapore Press Holdings
MDA - Media Development Authority

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Friday, October 05, 2007

stuck in my head

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Over the last week or so, I find myself, sometimes, singing that Boyz to Men's song - which to me is R-rated. the title slips my mind and I don't mind.

I would be at the office, happily doing my work and then I realise I'm singing that sick song... and I'll stop myself, almost slapping myself actually.
Once i did. softly la.

Apasal sey, aku nyanyi lagu ni??.. It's not even in my list of least favourite song. I don't think I've heard it recently on the radio.

And so I've been wondering - why the fish is this stupid song stuck in my head?!?!?!

THEN, just now I discovered how it actually got into this head of mine.

Everyday, in the office, the receptionist would normally play a CD over the company's PA system. (apparently she doesn't change the CD everyday or week or..) It's VERY VERY SOFT. If you're talking or walking - sometimes you don't even realise that some music is playing.

So over the last - i don't know how many days or weeks or months - the same instrumental CD of some popular songs were played. OVER AND OVER AND OVER again throughout the whole day. Yes, the office is that boring.

The amazing thing is - I didn't even realise that instrumental version of the song was playing at all! I totally didn't notice it until just now. It SUBCONSCIOUSLY or UNCONSCIOUSLY got into my head.

Isn't it amazing? Subhanallah!

AND SO, from this accidental experiment, I've concluded my findings. Information CAN indeed be put into our minds, EVEN if we are not actually paying attention to it. But in this guinea pig's case, it had to be repeated over a period of a few many many days.

So, instead of that, I think I should plug myself to the Quran recitations, and let it play over and over again - quite softly.. even if I'm not really listening to every kalimah. Hopefully it'll help with my needed hafalan and the more needed subconscious reminders. :\

DO try it at home! or in the office!
Or anytime, anywhere.



A.L.I.F!!!!
Alhamdu lillah it's Friday!!

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Thursday, October 04, 2007

ooh baby baby it's a wild world

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ



Actually, I was having a lot of mixed thoughts and feelings.

Personally, I'm happy, contented, alhamdulillah.

But I can't help feeling sad and scared, thinking about the world we live in, the people we've become.

During the weekend, I read in the papers about Nurin.
Oh! how she suffered! I can't imagine the fear and pain the little girl must have gone through. I guess, in a way, it's good that Allah SWT took her back. She need not suffer the ways of these crazy wild world anymore. I mean, even if she had survived that ordeal - i still can't imagine the mental torture she'll have to carry with her throughout the rest of her worldly life.

While reading that article, I was also quite appalled by the reporter's silly questions to the parents, asking the mother if she misses Nurin. like.... HELLO?? If it was me being asked, i wouldn't even answer that stupidest question. that lady is now grieving the lost of her child and they come and disturb her, and ask her unnecessary and obvious questions like that. I think the family needs some PRIVATE time to handle their grief.

Then after that, I read the english NEW paper, a story about how the broadcasting company, were advising the parents to dress their child modestly during the competition organised by the company.

Mind you, it's not the parents asking that their child be dressed modestly. No, the parents want to flaunt their kids.

I've seen a bit of that show once.. 'one minute of fame' and i AM sometimes in disbelief at how the children, as young as 4-7 years old, are skimpily dressed, for the competition, and doing seductive adult moves. And, now i know, fully encouraged by their OWN parents!!!

And they wonder how paedophiles get funny ideas. They should put this article side by side with Nurin's case.

Have we lost our capacity to THINK and CHOOSE what's best for ourselves and our children?

Ya Allah, what a wild wild world we live in.
What foolish people we have become,
living our lives in a stupor.



Ya Allah, save our children in this life and in the Hereafter. Ameen

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